February Update
Our son is two years old and as much as I hate the term terrible twos, there are moments with him that can only be described as terrible. He is in a stage where he desires to be independent, but lacks the knowledge to truly understand what is safe. There have been many times when I tell Josh to not touch something, he looks at me and does it. This utter defiance wasn’t taught to him. It is just part of who he is and until he really understands that our rules are for his protection, he will continue to fight against them. As hard as it is to see your child chose something that is potentially dangerous and be out right defiant, I do believe that it is a part of ultimately understanding God’s role in our lives as our protector. There have been times when God has spoken clearly that this situation, job or friendship isn’t for me. I go ahead and peruse what I have been told to not touch and then I get burnt. God’s rules or desires are for my greater good and this week I had a great reminder of this exact thing.
Last week we had some of Indy’s sponsors over for dinner. That morning I had felt the Holy Spirit telling me to ask them for something super specific for Indy. I said okay Lord I will ask, but just to make sure this is of you, will you please have them ask us if we need any extra support for Indy? I don’t want to step out of your will. Tuesday night they came and they asked how they could support us financially. God had ordained it all and set it up for me and I chickened out. I just said we are fine and don’t need anything. Oh my disobedient heart! I confessed to God and felt peace. I spent a lot of time with her sponsors on Thursday, but just felt a block whenever I tried to bring up the extra support. Indy spent time with her sponsors on Friday and I went to pick her up. When I got out of the car they said they wanted to give me money to pay for Indy to have a phone plan. They felt that it wasn’t safe for her to be without minutes for her phone. My mouth dropped open and I began to fight tears. That was exactly what I felt the Lord telling me to talk to them about on Tuesday night. I hadn’t said anything to anyone, but Dave so there’s no way they could have known. God is so good!
This week I have been really challenged by the book of John. There is a part of the book where some of the Pharisees heard Jesus speak and believed in him, but they didn’t speak out. The Pharisees were afraid of the people and what they thought. They weren’t obedient because they cared more about other’s thoughts about them. Let Dave and I never care more about man’s opinion than God’s opinion. Let us always follow Him with all our beings. Let us always be obedient.
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